Day 30 - Why is the scale not moving!!!

So, yesterday went well, I ate according to plan with one exception.  I changed out leftovers for dinner to chicken noodle soup.  Totally fine.  I was starving and I was getting nauseated so the soup sounded better.  I got in most of the exercise I had planned.  I'm having a hard time getting 5 rounds on the elliptical in because sometimes I forget to reset my timer but I'm regularly getting in 4. I ended up a little congested last night and I figured out a little magic trick.  If I put a drop or two of Eucalyptus oil on each side of my nose, it clears right up almost immediately.  That's wonderful because I used to use Afrin which is very addictive.


DoTerra Essential Oils

Today started out badly.  I woke up at 3:00am and could not go back to sleep, so I got up at 4:00am.  Then I weighed in since it's Friday.  Once again, I have lost nothing and that pisses me off.  I've worked hard for the last 30 days and I've lost a grand total for ~6 pounds.  It hardly seems worth the effort.  I know that the fact I'm having my period every two weeks it probably part of the problem but I'm still pissed off.  I'll keep going because 6 is better than nothing but it's really annoying seeing all of these other women eliminating McDonald's at lunch or not drinking as much soda and losing 30 pounds in 90 days.  I really hate this shit.

So, today my plan is:

Breakfast:  Nature Valley granola bars

Lunch: leftover nacho-less nachos

Dinner:  tuna noodle casserole

Snacks: cherries or melon

Exercise:  We'll see.  I'm already exhausted but I'm going to try to do my loop and try to get some elliptical work in.  If I have the energy, I'll do strength training.  I'm probably going to take a nap at some point.

Day 27 of the Emotional Eating 30 Day Journal Challenge
What do I wish I'd done differently? Why? What would be different now?

That's a pretty open ended question.  There are many things I wish I had done differently in my life.  I guess as far as food goes, I wish I had chosen to address my feelings (probably with a therapist) so that I could deal with the horrible things we went through in the last 2 years instead of eating my way through it.  The why is easy.  I would be stronger physically and emotionally.  I wouldn't have chronic tachycardia.  I figure once the weight comes off and I get back into shape, my heart rate will drop to a more normal range for me.  What would be different?  My self-confidence wouldn't be in a tailspin.  My husband and I would have a more normal relationship and we would be able to get out more often just to spend quality time together instead of plopping down in front of the TV every night until we pass out for the night.

Alright, that's all I have the brain power to do day.  I hope you all have a great day and remember...