Day 31 and 32 - Disappointment as an excuse to screw up

There's no need to really break this down into days because they were both pretty much the same.  I gave up on myself for a couple of days after my Friday weigh in.  I've been working so hard and 6 pounds in a month is extremely disappointing, especially when I'm seeing all these other women in the group losing double digits in a couple of weeks.  I realize it's tougher for someone with Hashimoto's and someone who's taking medications that have side effects of weight gain and I'm having my period every two weeks but I'm still really upset.  I have eaten nothing but junk the last couple of days and I felt myself giving up but I recognized it last night (as I ate my Marble Slab ice cream in bed).  I realized I'm giving up on my goals, my health and my happiness and I'm just not having it this time. And, I didn't feel good after eating all of that junk too. So, today I start over and, even though I tend to take the weekends off from exercise, I'm going to get as much of my exercise in today as I can.  We may be having a friend coming over for dinner tonight and he likes to cook for us when he comes but he usually makes healthy meals but I can still stick to my plan.  I just won't eat a huge amount of dinner.

So, that's really it for today.  I'm going to do this no matter what it takes.

My food plan for the day:

Breakfast  I'm not hungry at all because of my junk food fest so I'm probably going to skip this

Lunch:  chili verde

Dinner: Chicken and veggies unless our buddy shows up today.

No snacks!!!

Exercise:  Cul-de-sac lap, elliptical rounds (5 at 8 minutes) and housekeeping (that totally counts as cardio) 😁

Day 28 of the Emotional Eating 30 Day Journal Challenge

What went super well?  What is different now because of that?

I think this journal challenge has really helped me to see what my internal monologue about food and myself is.  I've learned how I can identify "garbage thinking" and I'm working on changing those thoughts to positive reinforcement.  Like, I could say I'm a failure because of my binge eating for the last couple of days or I could say, "Yep. I screwed that up BUT I recognized what I was doing and was able to bring myself back around and not give up because I'm not seeing the progress as quickly as others.

Well, that's it for today.  I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday.  If you're in the path of Dorian, stay safe.  AND always remember...Positivity, confidence, and persistence are key in life, so never give up on yourself. .