Day 20: Plan for plans to be derailed

Yesterday, my plans got derailed.  I overslept and was trying to catch up.  I ate my yogurt in a hurry and then went to do my lap around the cul-de-sac.  It was already in the high 80's by 10:30 so by the time I got back I was nauseated. That messed up my elliptical rounds.  By the time I was feeling better, I was so far behind I was playing catch up all day.  Then I had an issue with Verizon which kept me on the phone and then sent me to the store, who then decided I needed to call customer service again.  That took over an hour.  By the time everything was worked out, I had lost my time for elliptical rounds.  I stuck with my food plan though.  My lovely husband even prepared chili verde for dinner for me so I didn't have to figure that out.

My derailment continued into today. So, my food plan got screwed up. I had to go to the UPS store (hopefully, the end of the Verizon escapade) and then to my doctor's office for blood work.  I was trying to get everything done early so that I wouldn't end up behind again.  However, everyone in town needed blood work today so I was at the doctors office for at least an hour. I hadn't eaten breakfast because I didn't think it would take so long.  By the time I was going home it was noon and I was ravenous.  I stopped at DQ on my way home and got a small burger and french fries.  Not the best choice, especially since I don't really eat fast food but I didn't get a huge burger and french fries and a soda.  My stomach doesn't like this choice but I'm still trying to get through a few rounds on my elliptical.

My plan is/was:

Breakfast:  Nothing

Lunch: small DQ burger and fries

Dinner:  Greek yogurt with berries, GF granola and chia seeds

No snacking

Exercise:  Cul-de-sac loop + elliptical every hour for as may times as possible (shortened by lost time), hopefully, strength training once my stomach settles

Day 17: Looking back over the last 16 days of writing, what patterns or understandings can I now see about myself, food and my body?

I don't really have a very high opinion of myself for a variety of reasons which has contributed to my inability to control myself around food and stick to a plan. I've put too much stock in what other people think of me and I've let it control what I think of myself.  I've also let my past and my health conditions rule my life.  I've learned that I need to work on my mind if I want to successfully control my appetites and my body.I give up far too easily.  I need to be proud of what I've accomplished instead of being defeated by what I haven't done yet.

That's it for today.  I'm still playing catch up.  I hope you all have a great day and remember...Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.