Dat 35 - I think I can beat this

So, after eating for crap for days, I'm getting back online.  I'm not doing great with exercise this week though.  It's still the menstrual thing.  I keep having to go to bed because the pain is too much.  I'm very much a person that can roll with the punches but this is harsh.  I'm counting the days until my appointment.  It weird to me that I'm hoping for a surgical intervention.  I'm not like this.

I'm also way behind on everything this week.  Long weekends are great but short weeks are a nightmare.  I'm working on my business page on FB and the group I associated with it.  I'm making videos now and that's a whole big learning curve.  I'm working on my Travel Counselor training, my diploma on Aromatherapy, strength training and cardio, getting steps in, keeping up with this, looking for a job and keeping up with housework. I have way too much on my plate right now. So, my journal posts have gotten shorter just because I don't have enough time in the day right now.

So, once again, short but sweet.  My food plan is:

Breakfast:  my Greek yogurt concoction

Lunch:  Chicken noodle soup and saltines

Dinner: shrimp stir fry

Snacks: banana and melon

Exercise:  Cul-de-sac loop, elliptical x5 and strength training

Day 30 of the Emotional Eating 30 Day Journal Challenge

Looking back over the past 30 days of journaling, what do I now know that I didn't before?  How can I take this forward into action?

I've learned a lot about myself in the last 30 days.  My self esteem is in the toilet. I need to learn to be kinder to myself.  I need to not give up when life throws me a curve.  I'm starting to see patterns in my behavior that I can get control of, now that I realize they're there. I need to catch myself when I start thinking badly of myself. Like today, I was making a video and saw myself and almost couldn't do it.  I am extremely embarrassed by the way I look right now. I know some of it is because of health issues and medication but most of it, honestly, is my CHOOSING to eat for crap.  I'm also really hard on myself when I can't accomplish what I want to accomplish, like my weight loss over the past month.  I was so upset that I didn't lose more weight and I chose to not acknowledge what I had done.  I LOST weight.  I didn't gain it.  That alone is something to be proud of.  So, moving forward, I'm going to pay attention what my mind is saying to me and, when I catch myself being hard on me, I will consciously change that thought to something positive. 

Alright, that's all for today.  Happy Wednesday to all and always remember...The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.” ...