Day 46 - How do I recommit to myself

I'm really struggling here.  I'm only sticking to my 24 hour plan some of the time.  I'm giving in to junk food and not sticking to my exercise plans.  I need to rethink this.  I'm afraid I'll never lose this weight because of my lack of commitment.  And the constant fluctuations in my thyroid levels and estrogen and progesterone levels make me even more nervous about getting this weight off.

So, how can I change my destructive thought patterns to productive thought patterns?

"Screw it.  I want a cookie (cake, candy, crackers, chips, etc., etc.).  I've done well this week.  I deserve it."

Change that to:  "I've done well this week.  I deserve to feel better and to feel more confident about my weight and my body.  I don't need to ruin that with junk food.  I t may taste good but it ruins my confidence. Besides, after eating well, it just makes me stick to my stomach anyway."

"I don't feel like exercising today.  I'm tired, sick, exhausted, I didn't sleep well, et., etc."

Change that to:  "I don't feel like exercising today.  But, I'm going to do as much as I can even though I don't feel well.  I don't have to push too hard but  I do need to move.  It will make me feel better and, eventually, I will get stronger so that I don't feel badly all of the time."

Well, that's a start.  I can come up with other changes as I discover negative thoughts that I need to change. I should write these out so that I can see them whenever I feel like giving up on myself.

My plan for today is:

Breakfast: yogurt

Lunch: Chicken noodle soup

Dinner:  enchilada casserole

Exercise:  Walk around the neighborhood, ab challenge, elliptical

Alright, that's it.  Everyone have a good day and always remember...Positivity, confidence, and persistence are key in life, so never give up on yourself.

Days 44 and 45 - A lot of mixed emotions over here

I'm still struggling with sticking to a 24 hour food plan.  I make the plan and then, when I'm hungry, the plan goes out the window.  Usually that happens if I wait to long to eat.I'm having a lot of emotional turmoil too.  I'm thinking that is because of my thyroid being so far out of range.  I'm not sticking to my exercise plan either.  I haven't done much more than my cul-de-sac walk for about the last week.  I can feel it too.  My right hip is starting to hurt again and it seems like the more I usee it the less it hurts.  Since today is Sunday, it's technically a rest day but I did the cul-de-sac walk anyway and I'm going to try getting in some other movement as well.

So, today's plan:

Breakfast: Eggs & a banana

Lunch:  Enchilada casserole

Dinner:  brussel sprouts and chicken breast

Snack: Melon

Exercise:  cul-de-sac walk, ab challenge and whatever other movement I can get in.

So, have a happy Sunday and remember....Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.

Day 43 - Ah! Sleep! Sweet relief!!

I finally got some decent sleep last night.  Thank God!! AND today is my Friday weigh in. Down 2.8 pounds.  Even though I haven't been getting much exercise and I have been discouraged and not eating to plan, I still lost.  My thought is I gave my body what it needed - rest!! But I really have to get back to work.  I did my morning cul-de-sac walk and I'm going to try to do my strength training and my ab challenge.  If  I have the energy, I'm going to try to fit in the elliptical.  I'm not going to try for 5 rounds but, I can at least try for a couple of rounds. 

I emailed both of my doctors yesterday.  I'm disappointed with the endo.  He just switched my medication back to the lower dose that didn't work.  I have gone up and down between the 2 same dosages several times at this point and neither work but he seems convinced that eventually one will work which, honestly, pisses me off.  He's not even interested in trying to make me feel better. Jerk!!  I haven't heard back from the 2nd doctor but I'll probably here sometime today.


Anyway, my plan for today is:

Breakfast:  yogurt

Lunch: chicken noodle soup

Dinner:  Enchilada Casserole

Snack: melon

Exercise: cul-de-sac loop, strength training and elliptical

Well, that's it for today.  Happy Friday the 13th, have a great weekend and always remember...Endurance is not just the ability to bear a hard thing, but to turn it into glory.

Day 41 and 42 - I've completely lost momentum

I'm struggling right now.  I'm not sleeping well because of my thyroid and that's throwing off my depression and anxiety because I'm just too exhausted to keep control of myself. I'm having a hard time keeping on plan food wise and I haven't exercised all week (except the ab challenge because that takes about 2 minutes - I can do that). Well, I did manage my cul-de-sac lap yesterday and today.   Yesterday,  I was okay until late afternoon and then I ate toast with butter and jelly because I desperately wanted sugar. Today, my plan went out the window because I ended up running errands until after lunch.  I ended up having a Snickers for lunch.  Now, I have to try to make it until dinner.  I may cut up some melon so I'm not ravenous by dinner and over eat.

Okay, that's all for today.  I'm just exhausted.  I'll try to start again tomorrow.

Everyone have a great day and remember...sleep deprivation is the most common brain impairment.

Day 41 - I'm just not feeling it

I'm just struggling the last few days.  I'm exhausted even though I'm sleeping fine.  Today, I'm doing my fever thing.  Sometimes (usually about once a month), I run a low grade fever for like a day maybe two.  Then it just stops.  I'm not sick. It just happens.  So, because I'm so tired I just want to eat because I'm desperate for energy.  I did not stick to my plan yesterday and I didn't really exercise, except for my ab challenge.  I'm still feeling crappy today but I'm trying to stick to my food plan as best as I can.  Breakfast, however, got knocked out because I rushed with one of my poodles to the vet first thing this morning.  I found a lump on her chest, so I immediately had it checked out.  Thankfully, it's just a lipoma (fatty tumor) but they did tell me she needs to lose weight.  My little chunky monkey needs to lose 3 pounds which is quite a bit for a miniature poodle.  Oh well.  She's just gonna have to change her diet just like her mama. 

So, today:

Breakfast:  Starbucks (I was at the vet and needed a caffeine boost)

Lunch:  Last of the chili

Dinner: homemade burgers

No snacks

Exercise:  I don't know.  Ab challenge takes about 3 minutes.  I'm supposed to do strength training but I just don't feel well and elliptical is not likely to happen.

Anyway, have a great day and always remember ...Only in the darkness can you see the stars

Day 40 - Monotony Kicks In

I'm feeling like I'm getting up, doing this, working on other projects, exercising, watching TV and going to bed.  Then I wake up the next day and start all over again.  I'm really tired the last couple of days and I think this may be why.  I need to jazz up my life a bit.  How?  I have no idea but I need a change.  Yesterday, my husband and I were both tired so we ordered the pizza for lunch instead of dinner.  That was a mistake because I ended up eating way more than 2 slices of pizza and we ordered brownies too.  I feel like I'm failing at this 100 day challenge at this point and I need to get back on track.  I did do my ab challenge yesterday, so that's something.  I just want to sleep all of the time and when I'm worn out like this, I crave sugar because I am desperate for energy.  I need to figure out a plan. 

So, today, I've done my computer work already.  I'm going to shut this down, get cleaned up and finish up my homework for the day.  I'm going to try to get in my elliptical x 5 (with an increase of 1 minute so they are 9 minutes a round now)and my ab challenge.  It's still extremely hot out, so my cul-de-sac loops are cancelled until things become reasonable again.

My plan for the day:

Breakfast:  Yogurt concoction

Lunch:  chicken noodle soup

Dinner:  the last of the leftover chili

Snacks:  Probably nothing because I ate so much yesterday

Exercise:  Elliptical x 5 (9 minutes now) and my ab challenge

I've been trying to make these posts deep and meaningful, but I realized that's silly because I am doing this for myself and no one else is going to see this.  BUT, just in case someone shows up to the party, I hope you have a fabulous day and always remember...We all grow tired eventually; it happens to everyone. Even the sun, at the close of the year, is no longer a morning person.

Day 39 - Sleepy Sunday

Yesterday went well.  I stuck to my plan and, even though we had a guest for dinner (who cooked for us), I didn't eat anything unreasonable.  He made a lovely pork dish with mint and cilantro (it sounds a little strange but was actually quite good).  We made brown rice and used romaine lettuce to make wraps out of it all.  It was delicious and healthy.  I also got to trade recipes with him.  He showed me a cookbook app where he can share his recipes with me.  He and his wife actually eat quite healthy, so everything was okay for my daily plans.  Most of it is done in the instant pot too so that makes it even easier.  He even showed me how to make my own Greek yogurt in it.  I can't wait to try that one.  The only thing I didn't get to do was my ab challenge because he was here during the time I usually do it.  I could have done it earlier but didn't think of it because I was busy cleaning up before he got here.  Today was supposed to be a rest day though.   I can do yesterday this morning and be caught up for tomorrow.

I'm a little wiped out today.  I'm a huge introvert, so having anyone around exhausts me, even though I really like Dave.  So other than my ab challenge, my husband and I just want to chill out today.  We're even ordering pizza so we don't have to cook.  I'm adding it to my plan for the day and I am allowing myself 2 pieces and that's it.  I love pizza.  I usually stuff myself.  This will be something of a challenge, but I can do it.  There will also be leftovers, so I will just have to commit to leaving that to my family.

Today's plan is:

Breakfast:  Greek yogurt concoction

Lunch:  chicken noodle soup

Dinner: 2 slices of pizza

Snacks: melon

Exercise:  Ab challenge ans rest

Alright, everyone had a great day and remember...when we rest our energy is restored.